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a blog is like an unfinished conversation.
Posted on September 23, 2009
Blogging is funny. You write these posts, you publish them, you get comments on them and then whether or not everyone that may read that post has read it you write another one. And another one. And they get pushed further and further down the page until the post you wrote last week is three pages deep and may never be seen again by anyone. Ever.
Which is a lot like my life right now.
My email in-box is never caught up. I am always forgetting to email someone because I get so many emails in a day that they get pushed down the page until they disappear onto page two and i never look at page two because there are so many to answer on page one. So i forget people. Family people and friends people and client people, which are the worst to forget b/c they are paying you to remember them. But I do forget. A lot sometimes.
And don’t even get me started on real life conversations. I can’t tell you the last time I had a long uninterrupted conversation that wasn’t freckled with “stop that” or “get out of there” or “hold on a second, Mommy is working” or “can you hold on my other line is ringing”. Conversations with my good friends seem to just go on because we are never able to finish a complete thought. And Kim and I end up talking to each other 25 times a day simply b/c we have thoughts we need to share and to do lists we need to check on but between kids and clients and life we are never able to really finish talking. So we hang up knowing we’ll think of the VERY important thing we actually called about and call each other back 10 minutes later. And this goes on literally all day.
But what I’m finding funny about THIS blog in particular is that I feel like I’m interrupting Kim. Like if I come on here to just vent b/c my head is so full I just want to give up and go to bed, I can’t because it’s not TOTALLY my blog. But then it IS now totally my blog too. So as I jumped on here tonight to just write, because writing helps me to calm down sometimes, I sort of felt like asking Kim for permission.
Which is crazy b/c she doesn’t care!
I just have to get used to this blog. It’s like a long lost friend I don’t quite remember. I just have to get back in the groove.
But tonight.
The reason for coming on here for a brain dump.
Tonight I think I have to wave my white flag.
The merge, a big commercial shoot with an impossible deadline we actually met today, sessions all week, drama with work, a client that passed away who has three young kids, a friend’s daughter that was burned, my own sick kids, teething kids, missing my kids, my messy house, my empty pantry, my low bank account, my waiting clients, my patient clients, my frustrated clients (rightfully so), the laundry pile, the weight i am packing on, the feeling of never doing anything perfectly… all of it.
I just can’t work another 16+ hour day.
So.
I apologize to all of you waiting on me, frustrated by me and wanting to ring my neck.
But I am getting in bed.
At 8:30pm.
To rest my body. And drink water instead of soda. And read my book. And go to sleep. Early.
Because if I don’t I will end up way worse than I am right now. And that’s not good for anybody.
Can you tell it’s been a really long week already?
Where did you get the dough bowl? It is the bowl of my dreams!
Crunch time for you too huh? Can’t believe we both blogged about being overwhelmed tonight. So glad you are getting some much needed rest and doing what is best for your health. Hope you got a good night of uninterrupted sleep.
I had to giggle at the feeling like you need to ask permission… because I felt the same way… LOL! So glad we are not floundering alone in our overwhelmed-ness.
PS – Terri, I picked up the dough bowl and neat little antique shop just outside of Washington in New Haven. http://www.dustyatticantiques.net
Oh, Jodie, I really don’t know how you do it. If I were you, I would feel like this every single day. You have a crazy life and I worry about you. It will catch up. Don’t feel guilty for taking time for you and taking care of yourself. You have to do it.
Jodie -
You are doing a great job and you do not have to explain to anyone why you are going to bed early for one night for goodness sake!!! The only small request I have is…it is difficult to tell which one of you – you or Kim – are the authors of a post. It is like a guessing game and then I have to end up re-reading the post like 3 times! But it is fun…just confusing!
Hang in there. Things will fall into place and the earth will not stop turning because a few people don’t get an e-mail answered right away or because they have to wait a little longer for their pictures. You are only human!
Take care!
Ahhhhh JODI! I too have a pretty insane schedule too and finally have had a chance to catch up to what went one (with the switch etc.) and man, I hope you rested. you need it! And you do so well trying to balance everything and it’s pretty busy for you and I feel for you. I am sure those clients will understand because the photos are worth waiting for. I will call you friend. xo.
DUDE!
I feel your pain. Growing pains, right?
XOXO