Oh.
Did I just put my weight as the post title?
HELL YES I DID.
Because what is there to be ashamed of?
In five and a half years I have gotten married, had 3 kids, moved cross country twice, started a business, created a new business, supported my husband’s career, done a lot of charity work and LIVED.
And I don’t regret any of it! I don’t regret the late night Mnt Dews to keep me up and editing, I don’t regret the ice cream trips with the kids or the dinners out with friends or the popcorn at the movies or finishing the Halloween candy. I don’t regret that I quit coaching lacrosse or quit running every day.
I can’t.
Because that’s my life. And through the ups and downs I really love my life. There were just times, years in a row really, that survival was more important than my health.
And now at 186lbs it is time for a change.
Because I am officially 40lbs heavier than I was 5 and a half years ago. Which means I’m putting on just under 10lbs a year. And I don’t want to gain any more.
But I don’t believe in diets. Never have. Never will. I’ve never dieted in my life actually. I truly believe that diets cause failure. No matter how religious you are you can’t stick to a diet FOREVER.
So I’m not dieting.
I’m not even really changing how I eat.
No, I’m starting with sweat.
Massive amounts of sweat that runs down my back, drips in my eyes and beads up on my forehead. To achieve this amount of sweat I am walking for 25 minutes and then running for 10.
Every day.
And although my overly heavy body is protesting a bit, I feel it starting to come around. Like riding a bike. It’s starting to remember how good this kind of sweat feels. And how proud it is when it’s done each day. And how strong it will get eventually.
I am also drinking a boat load of water. Just finished my third glass of the day actually!
And yes.
Oh yes.
I am cutting back on soda.
This week i am allowing myself 2 sodas a day but I am not allowed to order ANY MORE from Imo’s. They make getting my fix too easy. And then next week I’m down to one.
And I think I’ll stay at one a day b/c cutting soda out completely is like dieting, it’s unrealistic for my busy life. And if I have a bad day and drink three. Whatever.
It’s all about steps I think.
Making small steps to create big change.
Truly, if the weight never comes off but I FEEL better I will feel successful. And happy.
And right now? I’m really loving the sweat!
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You go girl!!!!
Awesome post. : )
Way to go Jodie!! Before I had my son a year and a half ago I had lost almost 60lbs. After getting pregnant and being so sick and dizzy I had to stop really working out. I have gained most of that back so 3 weeks ago my sister and I decided to do the couch to 5k program…so I am running again. I still don’t enjoy it…but I’m getting there. Keep up the good work! You are a beautiful girl inside and out no matter the number on the scale!
I would highly suggest tracking daily what you eat and your weight. I started this back in August when I tipped the scales at 206.
As of today, I’m at 167.5. What I eat hasn’t changed, but the amounts and the in-between snacking has been eliminated because there is a calorie trail.
If you need an excel sheet to help with this, let me know.
Also, Diet Mt. Dew is pretty damn good.
You just gave me chills! This made me so excited for you! Guess what I decided today! To run a 5k. I’m going to do the Couch to 5K program and am going to find one over by St. Louis in the Fall! We should do it together!!! I agree with you totally about the diet thing. It has to be a life change or it won’t work. I have my one soda a day too. I just can’t give it up totally. I don’t want to even! If you ever need an accountability buddy or anything, I’m here! You can do this!!! xo
Those endorphins are crazy addictive, right? Almost as much as the caffeine.
ALMOST.
I applaud you! About being active, about not dieting, enjoying living, about being proud of yourself. Most often we are the hardest critics on ourselves. By the way we look, about parenting choices,… After 2 kids and still nursing, I am not doing anything for the time being. I have decided the time to get in shape will come again, just not this summer. Most often I just wish I could make the critic in my head shut up. I am raising Pepsi to your Mt. Dew. P.S. At the Photo class you were the most adorable! I was a bit envious of your spark, your house,…
sounds like you are doing just what you need to be doing! good for you.
I love your attitude about it. Seriously, what is there to be ashamed of. It’s just numbers. I love it and can’t wait to see you get back to your running self!
You are so beautiful, whatever you weigh. Besides, don’t you think old people look better chubby? It fills out the wrinkles. I liked to say I was just getting a head start on my “old lady weight”. Ha! But seriously, I commend you for running. I did the same thing after my two babies, youngest almost two now. What helped me as well is a free app called the Daily Burn. I started using it on the iPhone and dropped 50 pounds in about eight months. And it was easy. I’ve got another 15 I’d like to shed, but I’m still happy when I look in the mirror. Your blog posts are good reminders of the importance of inner beauty. Besides, you, my dear, were very blessed with being gorgeous inside… and Out!
Lady…like you said…its all about life and living it. Loving the movement rather it be in walking, running or shaking your booty in a zumba class…its all about living…you have the right mind set and I’m sure you will accomplish what you set out to do and more…
Hey Jod! Sounds fun. Do you have Nike Plus chip? We can run challenges against eachother…it’s really motivating for me to track my progress on the Nike site. Good luck!
I’m proud of you! And you’re beautiful. I’ve been stuffing my face lately out of stress and am gaining weight and feeling gross… trying to figure out how to work in some exercise too.
I am so proud of you everyday. I have seen what you accomplish in a day and can’t believe you can do MORE, but giving yourself the gift of exercise will help you live a better life. You go girl!
ummm…In *seven* years I have gotten married, had 3 kids (in 4 of those years), moved cross country twice (yes) , started a business (yes), created a new business (yes), supported my husband’s career (yup), done a lot of charity work and LIVED. YES YES YES…I am with you and I am 184 pounds…ARGH
whoohoo! We can sweat together!!
You can do it girl!
I recently trimmed down 10 pounds simply by writing down what I was eating and keeping portion in check. I’ll be praying for you that now matter what choices you make – you will continue to smile!
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