We have a co-ed softball game in a little while and although I LOVE being on the same team as C and have loved sharing this time together all summer, I really do hate playing softball!
Chris and I both have been having bad dreams about Parker lately. She’s been having bad dreams about who knows what. Her bad dreams lead her to our bed in the middle of the night more often than not. Our bad dreams allow us to welcome her to our bed and cuddle her non-stop. Wish I could get the bad dreams to stop all around!
My work life has me so busy. Trying to balance KCCI and Fresh Art and this big project I’m doing for our church leaves very little time for phone calls, emails, my children. And yet I feel so incredibly fulfilled because I’m using my BRAIN so much right now! It’s almost orgasmic to really have to THINK every day! And so, my mind is always torn between loving my work life and feeling guilty for being away from the kids so much! Ultimately we need the money so we don’t have a choice, but that doesn’t mean the guilt isn’t still there!
Blogging has become harder and I’m not sure why.
In August I’m going to try to blog once a day.
I’m also going to try to capture our EVERYDAY better. Even if that means taking a photo of me in front of my laptop!
Chris’s younger brother just bought a house and yesterday we went out to see it… it’s adorable and we couldn’t be happier for him! Funny though, it made C come home and “claim” a desk he shoved in our tiny bedroom b/c after seeing his brother having an entire house he can call his own he said he needed at least ONE space in our house to call his own! HA! I felt bad that he doesn’t feel like anything is “his” here and gladly gave him the table!
I am in search of a NEUTRAL+CHEAP couch. Anyone have one they want to get rid of?
I’m starting to dream, literally, about home projects which makes me yearn for a house of our own even more than usual. Kinda sad.
Today in Children’s Chapel the leader, my friend Amy, was talking about mom’s and she asked who did hair better at home, mom or dad? Parker said, very seriously, “My dad USED to have hair… but now he doesn’t have any at all.” HA! OMG when Amy whispered that to me at church I couldn’t stop laughing!
Yesterday was the funeral of a long time family friend and for the first time it made me realize I am at the age where my parent’s friends will start dying. And that totally freaked me out. So very soon I’m going to make my mom and dad (and inlaws if they will) sit down and at least talk about their wishes for their funerals b/c I know a lot of the planning will most likely fall in my lap (on either side of the family at this point!) and I don’t want to second guess my decisions! It is a SCARY thought to live without either of our parents but I’d rather be prepared! UGH! I hate even thinking about it!
Two weeks until Bailey starts Kindergarten and if I think too much about it I can start crying so easily! Two weeks until C goes back too and that just makes me depressed!
We’re going to the lake next weekend for C’s 31st birthday and I’m already excited! Not excited that it means I’ll be 31 soon also but whatever!
Ok. Enough free writing for today! Hope you all had a great weekend!