Parker (Jane is her middle name which is why we call her PJ) had a big day today! And it was big for more reasons than just the normal start of school.
Her and Bailey are best friends. They really are. They get along, rarely (if ever) argue and love playing together. They hug at night and are excited to see each other to talk about their days now that Bailey is gone at school all day. It’s a dream come true because I prayed really hard, for years, that my girls would get along and not fight like my sister and I did as little girls. Anyway, since her and Bails are so close they’ve always done everything together.
But as happens, they are growing up and Bailey started full-day kindergarten this year. Which left Parker, alone, at preschool for the first time. She’s never been at school without Bailey and this morning she was really nervous. I didn’t even realize it in the crazy that is our mornings until I was making breakfast and she came in the kitchen with her two sheep and her blankie and just leaned against me. My initial reaction was to tell her to move along b/c I was busy but it was like her nerves seeped into my leg and went straight to my heart. So instead of shooing her out of the room I knelt down and she climbed in my lap, where I held her for a solid five minutes trying desperately to put some strength back in her little soul. She perked up again when she got to get dressed in the outfit SHE picked out (from the 30% off rack at Target yesterday… thank you $1 shorts and $2.50 shirt!) and pack her backpack so that was good!
What I love most about her first day of school photos is that, in my opinion, it really shows her trepidation. In the midst of total get-out-the-door chaos I was able to capture just a few images that really caught HER in this moment of her little life.
After the typical first day of school photos I snapped this one of her walking to the car… notice her playing with the strap and the way she’s holding her little mouth…
When she got out of the car she asked me if she could take Sheep out of her backpack and I said it was ok. Then I caught this as she turned to make sure I was coming behind her…
And this is my absolute favorite… it truly tells the story of her first day in the Yellow Room (she was in the Red Room last year!) in just one image I think… with her backpack on but holding tight to her Sheep… LOVE this image and SO glad I caught it!
The thing is, she knows this school. It’s at our church. The director is my absolute best friend, Angie. This is the third year our family has gone here and her second year as a student. She knows all the teachers. She just misses having Bailey next door.
I think Bailey just gives her a boost of confidence. And this year will be SO good for her to learn that she has that confidence all on her own, she just needs to find it!
After I took these few depressing shots in the classroom I bent down and asked her if I could go. She still seemed so uncertain that we walked across the hall to give Ms. Angie a big hug to remind her that she’s there all day with her too. Then we went back in her classroom, I hugged her one more time and I left.
And you know what? She had a great day! Tonight at bedtime she hugged me and asked in my ear if tomorrow is a “yellow room day too?” And when I told her it was she BEAMED.
This is going to be such an incredible year for Parker! I can’t wait to see what a different kid will walk out of this school in May! I couldn’t be more proud of my little three year old!